Wednesday, June 22, 2011


I can not believe that I am writing this post. Has it really been two years since I held you for the first time? Have you really gone from this teeny tiny baby to an active no fear, fun loving toddler?


You are amazing in everyway, you light my life everyday. You are learning to talk learning new things everyday! You have made me so complete. I love you little buddy! Happy Birthday!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Fathers Day!

My Dad, is the most amazing man I know, for those of you who do not know, my parents were divorced when I was young, and my mom married my step dad when I was 13, in the last 15 years, he has been the most remarkable dad. I love you dad!

My dad holding my son the day after he was born.

Thursday, June 16, 2011


It truly is amazing how life puts us in situtations that we don’t understand at the time but later life it becomes clear, that we suffered before so that we could help someone later.  I am not sure if there is a single reason that I have fought my fight, but I am finding that my fight had a purpose. My fight was meant to make me a stronger person. I have always been the rock of my family and that continues still today, but I am beginning to understand why.  I dealt with a touch childhood so that I would have unmatched faith in God, I served my country so that I could stand up proud, I dealt with infertility so that I could help others.  Without all of those things, I would not be who I am. I am embracing me today. I am an amazing women!

Friday, June 10, 2011

struggling with discpline

I am so stuck right now! I do not know what way to go when it comes to correcting Ethan and enforcing the rules. No one really knows this but I was severely abused and as child not by my mom but a former step parent and I have to say that it is always in the back of my mind. My husband is amazing,but he was raised in the country where a belt did the talking. I have so many mixed feelings on the issue of discpline.

1. Spanking: I think that yes there is a time and a place for it but not until the child is old enough to understand what does and does not warrant a spanking. On the flip side, because I was abused I would never want my child to have to feel that sort of pain, so I would never spank.
2. Time outs- Yeah we have been trying them and they worked great at first but now Ethan puts himself into time out (it is really cute) but he thinks they are fun now and it does not correct the issue.
3. Re-direction This has never worked for Ethan, he is very stubborn and will continue to go back to what ever he was doing that he shouldnt be doing no matter how many times I correct him.

Those are the 3 main things that I have in my arsonal, maybe it is just the age and he will chill out sometime by the time is 18 or maybe I am doomed I dont know. I wish that I had the answers. It makes me wonder if I would be capable of handling 2 kids. I mean I feel like I have lost control of Ethan and he is not even 2 (13 days) I guess I will just keep trying and keep praying that someday i will learn the answers.

Suggestions are welcome...

Thursday, June 9, 2011


I joined my wonderful husband on the range yesterday to do some tactical training. (he is a firearms instructor and we are both former military) We were joined by Lane, Mike and Jake all military guys, I totally out shot all of the guys it was great fun! All though karma has a way of popping up. I am so sunburned I can barely move! It hurts like crazy and I am miserable.

This is a quick post but just trying to keep my goal of posting everyday!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Summer fun

It has been pretty nice here in colorado, the sun was shinning and I had the day off so off to walmart I went to pick up a little pool for Ethan.

He was so excited, although i have to admit that water was mighty cold!

He had such a blast splashing me with the water

All in all it was a good day!

Sunday, June 5, 2011


Adoption, it is such a wonderful thing, I have 2 people that I know one IRL and one whom I read her blog, and someday we will hopefully be IRL friends! Anyway, they have both been matched and are both currently expecting little girls. I am so excited for both of them  In honor of their adoptions I am going to be offer free photography sessions for adoption families, I am so excited to offer this! So congrats to you both!

Well today is cd30 and still no sign of AF. I will be calling my doc tomorrow and try and get in for a blood draw at lunch. I hope they can get me in. Hopefully they will call in some Prometrium so that I can get the script filled I will keep you posted.